Art means everything to me, without experimenting art I can not live. As the truth is that I am an innately creative person, who has a desire to leave tracks behind for the future generations by painting a surreal figurative art. I am interested in pushing the boundaries the way I am expressing myself as a part of the experiment of creating. My motto is “Life is suffering” and through my painting I would like to evoke a Zeitgeist anguish in the viewer, which I have once experienced and having evoked it in oneself by means of objects, movements, lines, colours or forms expressed in words, so to transmit that feeling that others experience the same feeling – this is my activity of art. This is reminiscent of the Jackson Pollock’s statement: “Every good artist paints what he is.” That is what it is all about. I like to paint a grand scale (3.2m x 2.2m) even though I often paint smaller paintings as equilibrium. My working method is to start from a well thought out idea. The ideas are like rabbits. I get a couple and learn to handle them and pretty soon I have a dozen. In fact, I have initially drawn a sketch, sometimes in the state of unconsciousness. The actual process of painting appears to happen quickly, but on the contrary I use multiple colour layers to achieve the end result wanted. While I am painting, I encounter a relaxed spiritual feeling in me; painting can be very therapeutic for me. My best friends are my paintings. I look at them and they will look at me back. It is a speechless conversation until the time I think they are finished. I am primarily interested in eccentric ideas, humour, irony and clichés that have perhaps dreadful influences on people; I want to engage people and make them think of the issues I deal with in my work. Art is not boring; it is an intelligent entertainment, which should arouse discussions. I use my paintings to wake up the public. There is so much terrible and boring art out there that time is easily wasted by looking at them, so I want to make onlookers time useful. I am sharp and critical, trusting my own taste and following my heart. I paint with the blood of the soul and will continue to do so as long as I can think. An elaborate painting is an outcome of the connection of the clever brains and playful hands. Whatever I do, the end result is judged on my gut reaction to it. Because I work quite fast, I can refine down to what I am after, in a short space of time. But if I have learned anything its how to spot what is working and what is not. Developing a critical and analytical facility for self-editing ones work, is what ultimately divides the good from the best. You are only as good as your ability to spot your faults- and it is the only way to keep improving.
When my work is going well, I am filled with a sense of enthusiasm, which can be very satisfying and overwhelming. My favourite thing about my work is fervour that I have accomplished something, done something worthwhile and it would be ideal that other people think so too. To me life is a vital ingredient in an image if I am not entertaining myself when creating it; I am not going to entertain anyone else with the finished result. I want to play with the perceivers’ emotions, giving them another perspective on existence. Ideally, I wish that my art leads the observer to a deep mental, emotional or spiritual sensation.
My previous series of “My Worst Nightmare” paintings are about an impending disaster, a peculiar threat if my paintings would burn. I paint the already painted, the co-existent matter of painting paintings. The first piece I made in Germany, when I was taking a year as an exchange student in Hochschule für Bildende Künste Braunschweig. I have moved on to next stage of flying/floating paintings starting from a “Whirlwind” piece moving to Untitled “Kill All Artists”. At the very simplest level I paint the monographic images, for instance my recent experiment of stairs which are leading nowhere. That is the state which I am feeling as an artist in my life at the moment; I am working hard to brush light in the end of those stairs. Perhaps, that movement will happen at some point.