Artwork Description:
Started this painting 3 and 1/2 years ago.. was very dark, since I had ghessoed the base black, visualizing bright colors on it.. but then.. it did not turn out to develop this way.. frightening forms
appeared, images hurt from core.. and others in torment, emotional as well as physical-- was one of
the 'hang on my wire' periods.. barely did .. Hid the
painting I had started, not ready mentally for the
'feel' of it.. cutting and very honest look inside.. at others 'next' to me--and 'around' me.. Their hidden or exposed constant torment of many 'faces'.. For some reason.. several months this
painting 'pulled' me.. do not feel inside honest when I leave feelings undealt with.. and then, I felt,
I 'drifted towards this 'darkness' .. when I 'see' what others do not.. or for good reasons avoid to 'see'......
so, took photo of the very beginning stage of the painting and created a digital series named
'Torment' (under computer art). . took a long time to create those.. They are special and outstanding as digital art works-- Psychological approach of expression more so, since I needed to confront self deeply again.. others I closely met.. or observed with 'inside eye' .. emphatic physical/psychological
endurance of pain.. Like spirits appearing in the night and I 'see' from "where .". And 'know' .. Well..
I am in this phase... would'nt think it, since you probably cannot -(or want not)- imagine this
existence.. The duality within.. Light and dark existence of contrasts of conscious and
subconscious... I worked on painting for days
and hours.. on black, to bring images forward--
with symbolical language I express -- a constant
layering of transparent hues.................... Inside still
'refuses influence' with title..